God I’m sorry

I really am

I don’t know how I could let this happen

But it did

I let Satan take control

I forgot to listen to you

I forgot to read your word

I haven’t been obedient

I’ve been selfish

I put myself first

I worshiped idols

I thought I was smart

That I had control

But I’m only human

I didn’t let you take the wheel

I crashed

When I thought there was no hope

You were always there for me

You saved me from death

I forgot how great you are

I feel broken

I feel guilt

I am on my knees

I ask for forgiveness

Ready to accept my consequences if needed

I am ready for you to take the wheel

Only you can change me

And I want that change

I want to be reborn

And put you first

Thank you for being a forgiving God

Thank you for sending your son to die on the cross for my sins

I am in debt to you

I miss you

I want a relationship with you

Thank you God

Thank you

Heal me Oh God

From the pain I hold dearly

Let me see

With your eyes

Let me speak

With your voice

Let me hear

Your words

Let me be

By your side

I need you more than ever

No one will understand me like you

Thank you for giving me a choice

By dying on the cross for me

It means a lot to me

First step to healing

Is listening

And you have always listened

Now it’s my turn to listen to you

…Breathe

Thank you

… Breathe

Thank you

This is my story

This is my song

Full of emotions

My doubts and my wrongs

My history to judge

Please don’t hold a grudge

I turn the pages

But I miss what’s going on

It’s a blur

Forget to listen

To pay attention

To take my time

To breathe

To be present

Instead of looking behind

Or trying to live a story that was not meant to be mine

But instead I want to be genuine

To be true

To care

To be at peace

To let go

And be free

To be brave

For the next chapter to come

There’s still plenty of blank pages left

It’s not over yet

My story has just begun

Hello I’m Mr. Bear

Your one and only limited edition stuffed teddy bear

But I’m more than just a bear

More than just a stuffed animal

I’m your partner

Your best friend

You take me everywhere

We go on adventures

We play hide and seek

We tell each other scary stories

We make jokes and laugh

You snuggle with me every night

You tell me your secrets

I understand you more than anyone else

I know my time is short

You will soon forget me

You will soon move onto bigger things

You will someday have children of your own

I’m worn and torn

I know I’m not real

Just a figment of your imagination

But don’t forget

That you meant the world to me

And I hope I meant the world to you

That I was an important part of your childhood

Thank you for all of the adventures we had

Your one and only

One of a kind

Mr. Bear

Have you ever stopped to wonder? 
How is all this possible?
How can you not look at life and history and not realize how lucky we are
Questions unanswered
Something simple as a blade of grass
Yet so complex
From your body to a small cell
Curiosity overload
We think we know everything yet we know nothing
We focus on nonsense
Waste our time
Never question anything
We are living things
Not robots
Are we so scared of the truth
Of clarity
Of knowledge
I don’t know how you can live your life without being mind blown of how life happened in the first place
We feel the wind but can’t see it
We are made up of atoms
We created technologies and changed the world
Look at your smartphone
You have a mini computer that processes information less than a second through zeros and ones
You can take pictures instantly and send it to anyone around the world
We are the most informed generation ever
Yet misinformed
The greatest enemy to the government is individuals who are informed and use critical thinking who question every motive
Where did our imagination go
The more we have
The more we go blind
Open your eyes
To the wonders of this world
Death sounds depressing
Yet so fascinating
Life is full of the weird
Of the unknown
It is meant to explore
Question everything
Think for yourself
Broaden your views in life
Don’t take life for granted
Travel, experience, listen to others
Meet new people
So go outside and realize how crazy and amazing and beautiful our world is
Not to mention the stars and universe
I’m in awe
Of how this is possible
How did I ever get so lucky to be where I am today

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Hope 
That word may feel empty to some
How can there be any of it
With a world like this
What’s the point
We can’t escape from death
We can’t run away from failure
Why even try
Was my life meaningless?
Death can make us wary
It can make us mourn
It can lead us to destruction
But what’s the point of all our hard work if we give up now
That’s what the enemy wants
As star wars says, rebellions are built on hope
We still can make a choice
Yes death will come to us eventually
But it’s up to us on how we will face it
It’s not the end but a new beginning
Hold onto hope
And have courage
To face your demons
To face the world
To face another year
To know your not alone
But if we stand together
And put our differences a side
We will bring hope to all

Oh the holidays

Days where we are to be thankful

And be merry and bright

Yet we forgot the meaning

And we go on a shopping spree

Commercialized

Need the next new toy

Maybe we will skip thanksgiving this year and wait in line for black Friday

I hear they have socks for half off

Trample someone because they were in my way

Fight a lady for the next new star wars toy

Oh the joy

We hunger for more

Materialistic

Greed

Never have enough

Also forget that there’s something called online shopping

But it’s not the same

We don’t have someone breathing behind my back

Only in America

Should be our logo

America the land of the great

Has become one big shopping mall

And yet we love it

Two things we love

Food and shopping

Shopaholics

Yes I’m being very sarcastic

Hope it doesn’t hurt your feelings

But believing that buying the next new toy for a kid will make them happy

You will be very disappointed

They probably already have enough junk

Probably will play the box more than the toy

Maybe what they need is not more stuff but more of you

In the end it doesn’t matter how much stuff you have

But the time you are with the ones you love

I can’t remember all the toys I received

But what I do remember are the memories spent with my family and friends

The adventures I had

Instead of using that money on a new toy

Use it to take your kids out on an adventure they will always remember

Be generous

Be thankful

Be kind

Because the holiday greed brings the worst out of people

So let’s change that

Time is short

Make every memory count

Happy Thanksgiving

Merry Christmas

And a happy New Year

Standing on the edge

So scared to fall

My heart is beating

I can’t stand tall

But out in the distance

The breeze is whispering afar

Saying…

It’s okay

To make a risk

To make a change

And breakaway

I’m just a bird

So ready to fly

My tiny wings won’t get me high

As I sink, I see others fly by

But out in the distance

A bird is chirping with a cry

Saying…

It’s okay

To be brave

So spread those wings

And soar away

I feel so hopeless

As life passes by

This heart is broken

I don’t understand why

But in the distance

A girl walks by

Saying…

It’s okay

Don’t stray away

You’re not alone

And make a new way

Saying…

So it’s okay

To be yourself

To push oneself

And make a risk today

If your job becomes a chore

You should head out the door

Because if you don’t have passion in what you do

Than you are wasting your time on what you were intended to do

Because time is precious

So don’t waste your time on something you hate

There is a time when you will have to work anywhere to make a living

But don’t let that get your hopes up

Everyone has to go from point A to point B

Just don’t get stuck at point A

Because you will miss out on what is in store at point B

So when you have passion in what you do

Everyone will see the real you

Don’t do it for the money

For the fame

For the gain

For the glory

But do it for you

Not for someone else

This is your life

Your Career

Your moment

Your love

And your Passion

It’s okay to think

It’s okay to ask questions

Why what where and how

Might drive parents nuts

But still seek for answers

Find clues

Investigate

Read, explore, endure

Plant that seed so that you may grow

In knowledge that you seek

In truth to set you free

In wisdom to share

Learn from others

Not only the good but the bad

Be observant

Let your imagination go wild

Have adventures

Explore the world around you

Enjoy every moment

And as always

Stay curious